Chicago was great no matter how much I was complaining during this trip!
Pics are on my facebook so if someone isn't there yet it's  time to join in!
Otherwise here is my photobucket.  http://s33.photobucket.com/albums/d83/IvagamiTatsurou/Chicago/
Concert was meowy! Not as good as MUCC [well, nothing compares here, duh!] but nevertheless, I don't remember the last time I've seen so many russian speaking ppl at one place, lol. 
Guys did good, I was surprised coz I knew the words to every song they played. I don't use ukrainian in my everday life at all but you know, over this past 4 years I've come to love my native language, strangely enough...
amongst other things, their basist is really cute ~smirks~ I wonder if I can remeber his name^^

I don't know what;s wrong with me, lately...  I feel like a kid.
I've been watching `Zombie Loan` all day. 
Didn't call anyone really, don't feel like ppl need me, nor that I need them...
I just really want to thank one person for putting up with my moodiness, hontou arigato, sempai! 
I mean really, how do you put up with me? 
Every time I ask you I get averted gaze and a silent smile...
Am I really that important to you?
I wish you'd answer me one day for real...

It's not because a lot of ppl have it 10 times worse than I do, it's just ... I am me  and I am effing tired of hearing about how everybody always manages to do better than me...
I don't want to listen to how completely useless I am and how I don't live up to my responsibilities in someones' opinion!

Instead, I'll just turn up the volume on my digi player and smile because it's already Haru and because I absolutely luv Tatsuro and MUCC's new PV.

Мда, млин, жизнь она точно рояль... Клавиша белая, клавиша черная, а потом крышка.
А к чему это я? да вот так вот мелочь у меня, а от такой мелочи хочется башкой о стену.

I mean, nothing really serious... nah, just a toothache that keeps me awake second night in a row.
I tried working on MUCC stuff while I am awake but since I am in pain my brain doesn't exactly want to cooperate with any of my "creative writing". That by itself is very frustrating because I know I am good at what I am doing, just not when all my thoughts are along the lines of dental problems and sharp pain (it's almost like my tooth reacts to my body movements, it's kind of crazy).

Side job I've been doing for several days now is also a lot of physical stress ( I have a suspicion that my toothache started again just coz of this whole stress thing with moving and the job). Any of you who'd done any kind of construction/home remodeling type jobs would know exactly what I am talking about. It's really not that bad, except for the part where ceiling falls on you and you gotta sand it and paint it at least twice ~sigh~ plus I am having a blast trying to wash all the paint off of my hands at the end of the day.
I really gotta start on finding a univ and getting in for summer/fall semester because I sure as hell want to finish up my accounting degree and I definitely don't want to make a career as a construction site worker, even if the pay is decent; and who doesn't need the money?
Money is really getting too much credit, it has and it will continue to be so as long as we live in a capitalistic society. Nevertheless, money is still not able to buy so many things that human beings value and strive to achieve.

Anywho, before I get carried away with this philosophical dilemma here, I'm gonna go take some more painkillers (hope I won't feel drowsy all day tomorrow) and try to get some rest coz I really need it!

Why do people hurt us?
Why do we hurt people?
Is this some kind of a bad joke, "pass it on" style?
I don't get this... no, I don't...

It keeps going on in a circle and it drives me nuts...

Okay, folks, first things first! 
Today is a VERY special day! 
I mean it, a VERY_VERY special day!

First off,  it's my MOM's Birthday! 
Congratulations to this amazing woman that managed to raise me and give me so much; 
Even though sometimes I feel like an ungrateful child, I still love her more than life itself! 
Happy Birthday Mom!

Oh my,  this makes me so happy that I can hardly stand myself!
Cynthia, I got the reply!  Thank you so very much for pointing me in this direction!
I am in!  Woooooooooooooooooooooooooot !!! 
Can't wait to meet my team and give them all I've got!

Oh, btw, to all of you who might be wondering and actually do care, I am going to be in Nashville, TN, this coming
Sunday! Yes, my dear friends, we got THE HOUSE! [that's what my 3-day trip to Nashville, this weekend, was all about]
So, from now on, it's safe to say that I am no longer a resident of North Carolina and that it is extremely sad to leave people I care about but Life has just gotten a lot more challenging and interesting! 

Ah, almost forgot, my dear Aya, I understand that u got the package today. That makes me feel even better!
I am sorry I held off on it so long;hope you enjoy everything and I promise not to procrastinate in the future.
~Panda Lufff~

In light of all this, I say: "Champagne! Let's celebrate this wonderful news!"
~pet-pet Hizumi, who is currently dozing off on my lap~